“And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.”
1 Peter 5:10 ESV
1 Peter 5:10 ESV
In High School, as a member of my school’s marching band, I played the flute and piccolo. as a member of my church’s youth group, I was on the praise team and often played my flute on a Wednesday night. I loved to worship with my talents, wholeheartedly! It was truly a joy in my life that I have always treasured.
After having my son at the age of 19 out of wedlock, I struggled to provide for him and made the difficult decision to pawn my flute and piccolo in order to get diapers and formula. The enemy had taken so many things from me, one by one. I have cried countless tears over the loss of so many things that had brought joy and were now gone. Fourteen years have passed since then and God has been restoring me little by little.
Last year at Revive Indiana, we were in an evening service when I saw Kaila for the first time. She was playing her violin and worshiping the Lord with such joy and passion. It brought back a flood of memories of the joy that worship brought to God as I delighted in Him and the music He had given me. I remember tearing up as she danced around with her violin as free as a bird with the sweet melody coming from her violin. God gave me a beautiful vision that night of being able to play my flute with her and worshiping once again in complete fullness of joy that only comes with the presence of God.
January, 6 months later, I received a flute in the mail. It was ordered from Amazon. It isn’t the most expensive flute on the market but it plays beautifully! As I opened the Amazon box, I saw the case. It was a black case with an embroidered design on the front. I didn’t read it right away but hurried to open it and assemble my new flute. I played it for a minute, testing the keys and admiring the shine on the nickel plating. After the initial excitement calmed down I noticed an engraving on the flute. It had a beautiful design and in the middle it says, “GLORY”. I looked again at the front of my case and in the embroidered design was again the word, “GLORY”. I posted a picture on Facebook and captioned it, “Restored Glory”. God had restored what was once taken from me.
It took about 5 months before I had the courage to open it up and actually play music. However, one evening in May, we were home on a simple average night. My husband had asked me numerous times about the flute that was “just sitting there” and when would I finally play it. I picked it up and put on some praise and worship music. My fingers fumbled as I began to remember the notes and the sounds and my muscles began to find the positions they were once very familiar with over 15 years ago. The memories flooded back in and I wept as I played, giving my hurt and pain to God for Him to heal my broken heart.
Then, this past weekend, God called me to come back into worship. Kaila was at the Revive Fort Wayne engage day on Saturday. When I saw her, she gave me a hug and confirmed that she would be playing in the evening service. The first thought through my head was, “I have a flute now!” I briefly told her this story and asked if she would mind if I played with her. She had no problem and was excited about it! I talked to a few others and ran home to get my flute.
That evening, not every note was exactly perfect during practice. I wasn’t the best of the best, not that I ever was. However, my fingers remembered their places and my heart remembered the joy and freedom of lifting what you have before the Lord and the joy and pleasure He takes in our “sacrifice of praise”.
I challenge each of you to seek Him with your whole heart. As you do, He will restore you and bring you to that perfect place in Him. All we have to do is come to Him and He will do the restoration. Give Him your past and He will give you a bright and shining future!